Hi ya me main man,i love you so so much darl just thought id tell you again,not much happing here darl me lives a boreing one now i havent got you poor kyle n kerry must be sick of me,a no were demis not though but a hate sitting over the kids man its not fair on them really,so i,ll have to do something its not right,he dosent need me sitting over him,as much as i love him hes got his own family,this is what a ment by it was me who would suffer the most if you didnt start to look after yourself,of course the bairns love,miss n need you and wish you were here but they,v got there lifes you were my life darl but you just couldnt see it,people say you dont no what you,v got till its gone well i new exactly what i had n thats all i ever wanted i did try my best to tell you n i got slagged off for it,i no i moaned n shouted about the drink in stuff but a was so scared to have to live with out you darl,in bye god i was right its so hard carl you,v always been there,in am going now b 4 a start the grying again so bye for now am on me way up to see you now so bye 4 now darl,i love you with all my heart see you soon i hope if you get a move on n come n see is love,miss n need you so so muchxxxxxxxxx