Hi you darling just thought id let you no[but athink you,ll already no like]where back in the premeire league,we,v got a cup and we havent been beat at home all season how good is that eh you would of loved it at home and we would of celebrated with the normal lot you would of been mortal me sober to look after you haha but i no 100%we would of celebrated it together wouldnt we loveing every minit of it,instead darl am so alone down here i no av got our kids but astill feel alone without you a just cont seem to get motorvated or interested in any thing any more i try so hard to get bye you used to say were serviveing arnt we,well darl alls i can say is am breathing cause i cont say am serviveing cause ano am not darl ineed you so much my hearts lituarelly been torn out i dont feel athing about anything or any body and i dont like being like this i need you so so much carl.it was shanes birthday yesterday darl him getting no cards hasnt helped mine and yours was up for im and when we get them back i,ll have aparty fore all our grandkids and put his and kanes up for them well darl am off cause am going to kyles for me dinner av got to call in to iceland for some yorkshires for im and am going the church tonight with cris so hopefully i,ll here from you there.i love you so much carl i wish i could be with you n be happy againxx