Hi ya me bestest,where all okay sort of,the best we can be with out you cause ur kids and grandkids miss you darl espeailly cj carl his head must be battered at least the rest of us understand why your not around any more we miss you so much carl its still unbeleaveable i still cont get my head around it i still make were 2cuppers on a morning,i always make to much food like a dafty every so often a wash some of your cloths av had your t.shirts and jumpers hanging on the like its real just sitting out in the back yard with me cuppa n a tab our washing on the line i can forget this is all my life now she for 10minits or so then when av drank me cuppa it all comes rushing back but them 10minits of normalaty are great i really really wish a could have you back just that one thing,to have back what was really mine all mine,if it was someone elses well id get used to it but you were always mine we,v always been together so why couldnt we die together.this is the most crule thing ever am not blameing you darl how could i you where bad,put if this is what they call fate n this is my destiny well i dont no what am soosed to do with it cause i dont want it i just want you thats all.mine n mine only and i cont even have that its just so unfair isnt it darl,say hello to me ma for is,our alan n peter aswell and tell my guy i send him abig kiss and cuddle i love you,s all darl but your my main man always have been always will be dont you ever forget that okay.am going now darl i love,miss and need you so so much carl goodnight for now i,ll speak to you real soon ok haha aspeak to you all the time,some times i even shout at you and still blame you for things haha but am shower you no that and if you do will you bloody come and see me i miss you not being aroundxx love you loads n loads aever n alwaysxxx