ITSxmas day darling,i miss u every day but its so hard it makes xmas just another day now darl n we had some great xmases together or family it was always about you,me n the kids and tammy arron n there bairns always made it complete this year all i had was claire n cj and kyle,kerry demi n chanelle no carl or faith hes really upset me darl,he spent all day with leann n her lot i have to say something carl or am going to lose im i cont blame leann were his family not hers,but since hes had faith its as if he hasnt got a family darl but wot can i do,but somethings got to be done hes sliping away n am watching it happening so much 4 him looking after me eh.since i lost u darl everything has changed,no 1 wants to no.stan has been the truest freind ever darl hes been there all the way.say hello to rene for is carl i cont even moan at her about loseing you,thats the scarey part i feel so alone n i dont no wot to do about it darl,a think its coz i no i dont or cont do this with out you i miss you so much i need you man carl.give my guy a big kiss 4 me darl n tell alan n peter hi from me n i love n miss them all,but my heart is broken and i cont wait to be with u again darl i love,miss and need you so much am going darl am sick of being sad please help me to snap out of it carl PLEASE....