Hi ya my 1 n only,its our anniversary n me birthday carl,n how much do i need n wish you were here to share it with me,i love you so much carl my heart,head and my world just dosent excist any more it all stoped the day i lost you,a still think the right thing would of been to take me with you,liveing with out you is just so hard darl,this is not a life its just me excisting,nobody cares or listens well apart from our kids carl,but that just isnt fare coz av always always looked after you n our kids,av always been there for what ever they,v needed me for were now they seem to be looking after me,a dont like them noing am hurting but its so hard to hide darl as much as i try i no they see right through me,they no how much i love you n how much love i got back off you,n i know there,ll never ever be any one who could r would love me like you did,you made me feel so speaicle n wanted,its back fired on me now eh coz am not the type to settle for second best,your my 1 n only darl,the day your live ended so did mine only your the lucky one,iv got to live this untill you come n take me with you darl i,ll always be here waiting for you no matter whatxxx me n you 4ever n always darlxxx i promise with all my heartxx