hi darling ,just thought ad let you no av been haveing some funny old dreams about you like some bad ones what a no r 100% wrong so they must mean sumick av had the same one 3 or 4 times but av had some lovelly ones darl am cutted when a wake up n relise its just been a dream awieh this shitty life was just adream amiss you somuch carl.can you remember when we first found out when you were in the freeman it was valentines day i really really thought it wouldnt happen you nar darl a never drempt id have to live with out you n you said julie make sure you eat and please dont spend the rest of your life on your own,well sorry darl a couldnt settle for second best me and you were born for each other n no body compares av always only wanted you i havent even looked at another lad in all the years av been with you its not in my nature is it like i tell every one when they say your a good looking las julie go out and meet some one but darl av never ever had sex we always made love me n you were one werent we darl...julie 4 carl n carl 4 julie i love you so much carl why couldnt i of come with you i never thought id have to live n die on me own dieing cont come quick enough darl i need to be with you i really do this is not a life darl alls av got 2 look foreward to is death coz thats were i want to be,but i want to be with you were ever you are n i dont no that till you come in tell is the kids will understand and 4give is in time they no thats the only place i can be happy my heart is acheing for you darling please come home n see is just a kiss n cuddle n to let me know where you are am sick of being alone av got cj here n i have demi a lot but am so lonelly with out you i miss the love feeling i used to get off you i no now what its like not to be loved n a dont like it n am to old to fall 4 anyone else to tell is they love is haha as if.im going now darl feel free to come n see me any time day o night am here waiting for youxxx I LOVE NEED AND MISS YOU SO MUCH CARLXXX ALWAYS HAVE N ALWAYS WILL BYE FOR NOW WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN I PROMISE YOUXXX SWEETDREAMSXXX