Hi ya dark,another xmas with out u dark,its so wrong man we should never of been ripped apart like this, a xmas kiss n cuddle is impossible,so easy n yet so hard alls I want for xmas is my old life back,it was mine n yet now,what do I have appsolutly nothing I no av got out kids n grandkids but that's just it ours,they should never be just mine,it breaks my heart knowing how happy n different things would be if you were here,they don't need me anymore they,v got there own family's now, but I need you Carl l love you so much,it would be much more fare if we went together were this way,your loved n missed were me I feel as if am in there way most of the time I try not to be n am going try to be less of part of there furniture, a don't no how am going do it coz there alls av got let but I will do my best.me n me dog will keep each other company but that's be normal thing for me so got to try something Carl am going nuts,a no its coz I miss you so much but what can I do,if I could have you home you wouldn't of been took away from us in the first plays,I no the bairns miss you loads as well am pleased they,v got there partners to help them that's a blessing,but I'm still in a rut I just cont move on Carl I want you so much xxx ME N YOU 4EVEA N ALWAYS DARL XXX I,ll put on a smile n try my best darlxxx I love miss n need you so much xxxx